There are some people I miss a lot and they live too far away. Hopefully I will get to visit my wonderful friends in the near future. Each one of them have their own way of making me so happy and we all learn something new or exciting from one another every time we hang out. For example, my friend Johnny from Boston taught me how to pop people's backs by stepping on them. It sounds so wrong but it's awesome, trust me haha! I've grown too accustomed to some of the bad friendships that surround me here in Arizona and that is scary to think about. Who wants friends that are there only when they want something from you? I certainly don't.

I found out my dog Kiko has a heart murmur that is making his heart enlarged and press up against his larynx. It breaks my heart every time he coughs hard because of it. I am saving up for his medication and x-rays because this semester's books totaled about $700. He is my everything and he has a heart on his head!

I am letting go of most of what I thought I knew. What I do know is that I am what you call a hopeless romantic and it gets me into trouble. If I met a guy with the same sentiments as me about romance, I'd be happy. I'm pretty independent, ok sometimes too independent, and don't need a guy to lean on at all, but it is one of those things that "would be nice to have." However, I refuse to settle!




On another note, I am so excited for Where The Wild Things Are. I love the colors and the feeling that the movie gives off. It will be a great break from the outside world for those couple hours.

Hoping for the best, whatever that may be.

Just got back from looking at an apartment downtown. 7th floor, 1250 sq/ft., floor-to-ceiling windows leading to the balcony, amazing views. I really hope I get it. Summer is almost over and it feels like it has to go out with a bang. It's been a rollercoaster of a summer. Summer school finally ends this Wednesday. I'm thinking a nice trip with my some of my best friends to California or a camping trip is needed. We all need to get away from here, if only for a little while. I will also finally get my tattoo soon.

And I need to stop falling for heartbreakers.

I always get hurt and I'm afraid of the day when I become numb.

I love this song and how it makes me feel.

I saw 500 Days of Summer earlier today. I just retyped this sentence about 7 times because I don't know how to explain how much I loved this movie. It reminded me of a lot of good & bad feelings. I hope I don't meet another Summer. Just go see it!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Billy Mays, you will be missed. How did you get your beard so lush and dark?

secret banksy exhibition, pretty cool.

louder, lips speak louder

Summer is amazing up to this point. Monsoon season is starting and the rain is probably my favourite part of this season. I know I appreciate it because I'm a desert rat, if I lived anywhere else, the rain wouldn't get a second thought...but everything feels so much more calming and carefree with the rain, i.e. falling asleep while it's raining, taking a walk in the rain, drinking tea/coffee outside, you get the idea.

I haven't been taking pictures lately so here are a couple of them from I like:

wanderlust

After being home for less than a week, I would like to travel again. Being back in Arizona makes me very restless and anxious. It feels like I'm missing out on a lot by being here. This summer, I would love to visit my friends in Boston and my friend in Nashville or take a roadtrip to the Northwest. Trips out of the country too.

Change is good and this year, a lot has changed so far. It will be the biggest weight lifted off my shoulders when school is over. The idea of moving somewhere new where I know little to no one is a very exciting idea, scary: yes, but I like challenges.

Restless

This past week, I've been in Las Vegas for Sephora training or recovering from Las Vegas. There were two of us from Tucson while the rest of the class was from Vegas, Atlanta, Tennessee, Charlotte, SoCal, etc. After the 8:30 A.M. - 5:30 P.M. classes, Alex, me, and our friends from the class usually went down to the Strip and walked/talked/ate/lounged/collected escort cards/played tricks on people.

It was my first time there and it was nothing what I expected, in a good way. I would never choose to live there or anywhere that's in a desert but it was a lot of fun. It's just funny to me that barely anyone we mingled with was from there.



lots and LOTS of walking...




Mcandy, Alex, Manoah, & me; right before Manoah pissed some poor girl off hahah!




No matter where we went, people were handing out these cards. If you can't beat them, join them...so we started collecting these.




The view from the top of the Rio at the Voo Doo Lounge. So beautiful & relaxing after days of walking.



The night before my 7 a.m. flight, I stayed up all night because I knew I would wake up late if I went to sleep at all. Delirium set in and everything became funny.
Vegas, I'll see you again.

dipping into alchemy

The beast that I lie beneath is coming in. Can't shake this feeling of wanting to create things, music, clothes, art, anything. I want to sing in that raw imperfect way that seems to still somehow work. Good people make me happy and I will get my tattoo[s] soon.

I'm always drawn to this style of artwork.

I forgot about you, blog.

I just drove home from Phoenix. Joe and I went to see the Yeah Yeah Yeahs and Grand Ole Party. It was a grand ole time hah. Aside from feeling like sardines crammed into an oven, it was amazing and they put on a great live show.







We also went to my friends' band's dance party concert on Saturday. They're called Horae, a great local band and a bunch of talented people. I've known everyone except for the singer for a lonnnnnng time now. I didn't get any pictures of them though.


Me and the boys are going ghost hunting tomorrow, well I guess later today, technically. They want to bring a Ouiji board and I don't mess with that stuff so they're on their own with that.

Start the day off right [wrong?]

Ever wanted to know what it's like to be smashed at 7 a.m. without sacraficing the most important meal of the day (breakfast)? Well, with BAKON Vodka, you can have the best of both worlds!

Personally, I would never want to be intoxicated off of this stuff but I know many who would! I mean, the website makes it seem so....delectable?

"No tinge or burn on the tongue, no obnoxious smoky or chemical flavors, just a clean refreshing potato vodka with delicious savory bacon flavor.
Pure. Refreshing. Bacon."

I'm expecting that dog from the Beggin' Strips commercials to bust through a wall for this stuff. Bacon, bacon, bacon, it's BACONNNNNNNN!

life, man

i am happy for everything i have and everything i don't have and everything i will have. summer is officially here loud and proud. the heat, well we can do without that but summer nights are where it's at. maybe i'm getting too excited for it but you should be allowed to get excited about things.

sephora is sending me to las vegas in three weeks for training. i'm ecstatic but anxious...a little nervous too. alex, who also happens to have the same birthday as me, is going too! i love that girl, she is full of shits and giggles.

my brothers and i are going ghosthunting before i go to vegas. our neighborhood friends and whoever else wants to join will be in for something else. i think we are planning on going to evergreen cemetary, bisbee, tombstone, and agua caliente park. speaking of agua caliente, that place sends chills through my blood. every time my friends and i have tried to explore that park at night, we never get further than past the front gate.

everything you wanted to know about silence

A new glassJaw album soon, please?

Today and yesterday consisted of a LOT of packing, moving, & breakin' backs/smashing fingers. Thanks to help from some strong boys, I'm finally all moved out of the house near campus, or I guess some would call it a casita. The only thing I will miss about it is the fireplace during the winter and the 2 minute walk to The Taco Shop Co. right around the corner.

Lately I've been in touch with some old friends. It's been nice so far. It makes me happy when a friendship feels like you haven't skipped a beat at all, even if you haven't spoken or hung out in years. We're a little older, a little more mature, maybe even a little more wiser (?), but we still laugh about stupid things and I love that.

I can't wait for summer adventures...

ghost hunting trips, picnics, exploring, last minute road trips, picture-taking, food-devouring, late-night delirium, summer love even? Whoooooo knows? That's the fun of it my dear.

This is a perfect day for bananafish.

Last night, I went to see "Angels and Demons" with a friend. It was eh.

Fun fact: my dad went to seminary school back in Vietnam to become a Catholic priest. He went through years of the schooling/discipline and was about a month away from being ordained when he dropped out. His parents were not happy.

Now it's cloudy and raining outside for the first time in months and I'm perfectly content. I ordered a huge pizza for all of us. They love it. That pizza used to be a part of a weekly routine for the high school years: school gets out early on Monday, we would go thrifting, we would get hungry so we would eat at Brooklyn's or Magpies. I told my youngest brother he needs to taste the pizza straight out of the oven. Nothing's the same if it isn't fresh out the oven. I'm supposed to be packing and moving out of the cozy, kind of old house near the University and back home for the summer, to save money. Instead, we're chowing down on pizza and getting full.

There is a Michael Jackson vs. Prince night at Club Congress tonight. I'm obligated to go as the DD. It is nice to be sure my friends get home safe but taking care of drunks, driving home dead-tired when the sun rises, and being around drugs isn't what I want my life to be. People do what they please and I'm not judgmental but I'm just glad I'm drug-free and not an alcoholic. It's just a choice I made, not something I throw in people's faces. But now is a crucial time where I need positive people in my life because it's crunch time.

I can spend hours looking at http://ffffound.com/. Whenever I'm uninspired/lacking motivation, I go here.

paint that shit gold

Adin de Masi, where are my collages/paintings from my sophomore year art class? You have them, I know it. Your tattooed arms and full beard don't scare me, I want them back :( Not because they're worth any money or have any artistic value, because they probably don't, I just like looking back at things I've made in the past when I will be older.



Travis Louie, can you paint my nightmares for me?

Can you make sure there's an extra dose of wtf?

Romy and Michele's High School Reunion

...is so bad it was good.

Anyways, it makes me happy seeing all of these great music-makers I used to listen to reuniting. The Get-Up Kids, No Doubt, Coalesce, Blink 182, etc. Is everyone reverting back to their past to escape the b.s. of now (like what crap is Hollywood Undead and Asher Roth)? There's still a lot of good music coming out now but I like the idea of revisiting the music I had to buy from Toxic Ranch or Sam Goody on the weekends ;) I say that jokingly but you know you do that evil deed -late at night- when there's nothing else to do. You know what I'm talking about...





Downloading that high quality......











music....... What did you think I was talking about? Get your brain out of the gutter :)

Franz Ferdinand and Born Ruffians

I went to the Franz Ferdinand and Born Ruffians show the other night and couldn't have had more fun. It took me back to the good ol' days. Sure, back in the day, me and the girls had to be dropped off by our parents at Skrappy's for a year or two until we were old enough to drive, but we don't need to discuss that :)


The nostalgia turns into excitement for the future. I don't really know what to expect, but you know when you get a good hunch about something? This is one of those times. I haven't smiled and laughed and cried [from laughing] this much in awhile and I owe it to the good company. I can't wait for that cool summer-night air to hit my lungs. Lazy summer days and random summer nights. This could be it.